i had a nightmare. nono. not really a nightmare. its a dream whereby i confess all of my hidden feelings. err...scary yet a relieve feeling. hee~
ouh. today im on standby but im not really looking forward to go to work. im so lazy to work. But if im off, i wanna went out with mas or something. i guess.
and im maybe going on a vacation with noryaaa. big MAYBE. and i hope everything is fine yeah women. =)
aiyoh. please dont call me, i lazy to work. hehehe.
{Monday, January 29, 2007 @ 2:34 PM}
im off to work soon and i feel like i got to blogging so yeah.
mum is karaoke-ing again. i think that goes under her hobbies list. And i miss working in Vivo City cus for the pass few days, i have been transfer to paragon and other places but alot of times at paragon. i miss my katrina, kala and suzi and all. vicky the most. i havent seen her for like 3 weeks i guess.
though, i think im getting my new uniform later. cus when i went to paragon outlet, all of them wonder why arent i not wearing my new uniform. though, my new uniform is not a 3/4 pants =( but a skirt. seriously, i look more to a seondary school girl. but hack lah, cus its either that skirt or a long pants which made me look like a small girl wearing a office pants. ee. hhaha. okok. wadever. i think im off to work.
and i think im having that part of the month where i eat chocolate non-stop again.
i just dont get it all you people. I've done all those thing even though i feel im like hating you forever. but then, i decided to do it for the sake of respect. But ouh, what did i get? no thank you, and top of that, you kinda blame for another party who is so dearly wrong himself. Its sickening to hear that.
And hey you, i was just asking something which belong to me. And you sincerely finish it without asking me about it. and thank you for slaming that door right on my face. Seriously, you need to do some reflection to yourself. cus all this year, i gave in to you but you just dont realize because of your ouh so devil-lish attitude. sometimes i just feel like hating you forever. But mostly, i try to treasure as what we are. But you just still dont get it. You just want all for yourself without thinking of others, do you?
i just dont know how to treat you anymore. Sometimes, wi would seat in the room thinking how to make our quarrel less and more bonding.
But argh, youre just a sick in my head now.
{ @ 1:02 AM}
my saturday filled with laughter=)
and ouh, all the pictures kinda jumbled up.
and im at mas house now. nenek tell me to take some food home later. and im eating mas black forest cadbury chocolate. its heaven but i still love my hazelnut cadbury chocolate. heee~
and since today im not working, i wanna watch dance floor.
it seems like, its my first sunday that i never work.
went to dance. shima was late but its ok. cus im late myself =D
and yeah. we were abit late for mr cho class. but it was ok. jennifer class is a hot and sweaty dance practice. and the air con never seems to work. make us feeling theres free sona around us.
im happy that we both communicate with rul again. its been a long time since we all had a good joke after all those small "silence quarrel" suring our last year dance practice. :p im happy =)
went to banquet causeway with miss shima. i ate hotplate horfan fish fillet. and miss shima? aha. she ate this sweet and sour chicken rice thingy. looks yum yum. ok. hungry now-
went home. bath and change. went out and meet melly,syauqi, husaini,syafiq and ezz. we all went to arab street. thought house of japan is like a sooo a nice shop or whatsoever. but turn out to be a ...ermmm...ok. nice to see the shop i guess :p
then we went to town. went to forum. we went to toy 'r' us. taking pictures with head gears and all. costumes and ponies. playing games and ride on those kiddy rides.
thennnn waited for ezz girlfriend from work. we sat at macdonald and cracking our brain hard enough to solve syauqi's riddle to win that 8 bucks. ahaha. and after we all like think for more than like 20 minutes, i kinda get the answer lah. but i wont take the reward =)
walk to somerset trying to solve one another riddle. birds, nasi, jagung, ikan bilis helmet.
and singapore win win win !! cant wait for finals!!
{Friday, January 26, 2007 @ 10:30 PM}
im gettng sick and tired of my computer. seriously, it feel like it needs some smacking fun from me. if i could be a warrior for killing virus and turn into bits, small enough to appear in the cyber world, i would kill all those mites or whatsoever which had playing around with my comp. sickening stuff.
i cant upload pictures i guess. i cant click on those drop down anymore. i just need a Bill Gates or something beside me. or a computer whiz or something. something which make my computer brand new again.
nevermind. i had to be patient till tomorrow night. i think i had to ask my mas mas to help me. if she cant have the solution then, that would be another story.
and ouh, yeah, today off and tomorrow too. ive been online and when the computer is dead, i went reading my book at the corner of my room. so far, i have finish this book on Ugly. now im going to another of Scott Westerfield's 2nd edition, the Pretties. yourll should go and read =)
{Tuesday, January 23, 2007 @ 8:46 AM}
read chapters after chapters on "Uglies" from Scott Westerfield and couldnt stop thinking about it. questions after question knocking out from my head. confusion hit me preety well.
Was on my bed, glued my eyes on the paragraphs printed this page Uglies, and i heard grandma's voice. I quickly stood up and step fast to the living room. Grandma and mas came bringing wonderful food. I miss grandma so dearly. Im so busy that i have no time to visit her. not like those nitec times, where after school, or during our break time, i would visit grandma at home and eat her food. And would entertain my aunty's son on his Ultraman vcd.
Grandma left after staying for 1 hour. It was not enough for me. But it was getting late. She gave me a warmth kiss on my cheek and forehead which would last me forever.
I should sleep over at my grandma house this weekend or something. But i guess grandma would go Johor for some relatives stuff. But at least, i can runaway from home for 24hour since dad and mum is like having war.
And i could be crazy with mas at her house and talk about our endless jokes and foolish games. and we could have a night walk and have alot of those junk food. nice-
{ @ 1:40 AM}
i cant bare to see you getting hurt.
but in the same time, i cant bare to let myself getting hurt sacrificing to the other party.
i gave in to much in my life.
i made alot of sacrifices in my life which i kept it to myself.
i lock it under where it belong.
under a heart which had suffer enough.
so just, let me do the right thing.
dont stop me.
please.
{ @ 12:25 AM}
work at bugis space outlet today. they made my day =)
im super talkative today. seriously. nadrah and diana is the babe who followed me to caused a scene at the outlet.
and there was this women, i was like serving her. and she then speak to me in chinese and i was like, "HUH??".
nadrah, me, and the women's boyfriend laughing. ahaha!
the chinese women talking to me like im a professional mandarin speaker and me, my "huh??" was like so low and sooo ya..low huh. ahaha. i dont know how to explain it in words. but its damn funny that i and nadrah kept laughing. ahaha!
and diana and nadrah says that i look like an indonesian. -_-
of course i am an indonesian. i think those red indian ones live in some lost forest.
and i went home with nadrah. since were taking the same train. we kept talking like an indonesian women.
im looking forward for out outing with diana after 10 feb. i hope we wont forget about it :]
the conversation we had played over and over again in my head =)
{Sunday, January 21, 2007 @ 12:38 AM}
went to dance early in the morning with my loveable booboo instead of following dad cycle to khatib to that fishing place.
yana and me eat eat inside the bus like our mustdo basis. ahah! we ate currypuff. those mamas one.
we laugh here and there like spastic women like always.
and waited for our dear vernie. ahah.
hug her after such a long vacation from each other. she nearly choke. =p
and yeah, we went to dance. mr cho, just please, treat us like those times. cus i really miss those times with all those jokes. argh. and that miss pig, go away.
verne was not there cause she was late. ahaha.
ok. went home. eat inside the bus again. ahah! funny funny! beside us got some ghost wanna like possesed liyana. ahaha! i dont know how to explain here but yeah. ahha. then yana went down and beng hui alight the bus. we talk talk crapness plus stupidity-ness.
reach home, bath, pray, and get ready to meet shima. she wanna go shopping. went to bugis. it was raining. i loike. thank goodness i brought umbrella. ahaa. and i love to the the mee pok tah there. heee~ and walk around and i was hungry again. shima dont let me eat so much. cus she dont feel like. hmpf!
then she bought two tops. and it is so hard when there is no fitting room i tell you. you must like estimate whether she fits or not. ahaha. then we went to town to meet melly, husaini,syauqi and syafiq.
then we went to heeren and walk to shaw house. cus thought of sit around at Mc Cafe. turn out that i feel like sitting at Coffeebean cus the McCafe seem soooo...naahh.
we went to wheelock. and saw 4 dude standing at the traffic light. seem so familiar. i smack both of the two guys bag from behind. ahaha. the two guys was shock. ahahah. it was husaini and syafiq. and melly syauqi was there too. ahaha. then they all wanna go makan. then shima meet her friend and yeah, we seat at Coffeebean and drank our Snapple and this Double chocolate muffin. ahaha.
i was qualified to take ugly photos =DD
and another nice saturday was spent. =)
{Friday, January 19, 2007 @ 3:21 PM}
turn out today was just a seating on bed and reading books consist of more than 400 pages. and im filled those boring moments with cooking, sweeping the floor and being a geek infront of the computer.
i have a sudden urge to drag myself to shing shiong. eat those icy ice kacang top with loads of corns. yummies.
and i so cant wait for prison break next week. my honey boyfriend is like escaping or something from prison. and his making me so anxious to watch him do it on national television next week. aaahah! i like wentworth miller lah. =DDD
ahaha. see see the picture. wooohoooo!~
lalala
{ @ 1:07 AM}
at then you know it, tomorrow im off. zoo is canceled due to some 'changes'.
i think im looking forward for tomorrow but the other side of me is telling me to push that day off me. i feel like wasting myself up tomorrow. i feel like visiting singapore's past and bring back to life. visiting kampong glam, chinatown or fort canning would be a good deal. maybe. or the singapore art museam. hehs.
see hows tomorrow first. dont tell me im gonna end up at town again.
and today, i was posted to work at china square centre. its like damn quiet and boring. seriously. and mable and xiao wei ( i think thats her name), were nice peeps. mable is coming to vivo this sunday to work. so im gonna see you then babe.
im gonna go read my storybook and buzz off to sleep.
{Thursday, January 18, 2007 @ 1:35 AM}
it was such a letdown today. but out with mas was time where i could be free from the cold world. thank god i have a wonderful aunty which i couldnt ask for more =) i love you mas mas! <333
yesterday working at paragon and i have no comment on them. how could they let me work on friday where i have promise my sayangs to go to the zoo? and when i talk to catherine about it, she gave me chance by working till 4. like wth? i think when i reach the gate of the zoo, it will be closed by then.
and they like giving me all this clothes of uniform to try. saying that, we all getting new uniform from the new collections. and of all of those uniforms, i took this puffy top and a skirt. seriously, i look like a school girl. i know i am lah eh. but i prefer wearing those bermudas with that top. but then that bermuda was suppose to wear an ugly top and a long cardigan. errr..ugly. so skirt it is. im gonna be freezing obviously in future.
and i feel like a worst sister in the world who teaching sister not i na proper way. im just too stressed up liana. im sorry. but thank you for being so sweet of asking why am i so down when i was lying in the dark in the living room. =]
{Sunday, January 14, 2007 @ 11:08 PM}
ok. parents not home now. i wonder whether mum is working or she is out with my daddy and sis. hmm...but ouh so THANK GOODNESS that the karaoke marathon is like sooo soo O-V-E-R! haha. and guess what, when i was going to work just now under my block, i heard my mum's friends voice from downstairs. like so loud lah my speaker! ahah. i wonder did anyone made any complaint? ahah. cus if im not wrong, myprevious home like 3 years ago, got 'saman'. aahha!!
and yeah. work. i realise im starting to talk to suzi more often and getting socialize with her then we did before. and i realise my colleague is starting to talk to each other. not like last time. its like so quiet. argh. and my katrina came just now with her husband. she so preety lah. with or without make up. gorgeous garfield you. ahahha.
and went home with muhammad. he went to his cousin which is the same block as me. yeaps yeaps.
and i realise something.
my mum inspired me to sing since i am little. i remember following her singing Ziana Zain when i was 4 years old. Singing to the standing fan to make as my ouh so uber cool microphone. ahaha! and i remembered primary 2, i remembered that i starting to read words easily already and saw mum singing this duet song from Ziana Zain and Awie from this Album of hers. Then mum tell me to be the 'Ziana' and she be the 'Awie'. and we would duet and duet. then when my family starting to move to admiralty, i was primary 3. when im bored, i will always which on the stereo and plug in my favourite microphone and sing songs from siti nurhaliza like what the hell. ahah. so loud lah. and mum was sleeping cus from there on, she was starting to work night shift. ahah. i wonder how she stand it. when dad's friend came or visitors and when my parents would open those karaoke machine, they would tell me to sing one of those malay songs. and i would sing like some ass wanabe superstar. wth!
and ouh. when im at weddings with mum. i just hate it when mummy force me to sing at the karaoke machine. i would be begging not to go but turn out that i would be at the front there with a face saying, "i hate this".
i really miss those moments. but mums never fails to force me to do something what she wants. seriously. not only singing. even to model and dancing on stage for that small concert on raya and weddings. it serously embarrasing. ahaha.
if you ask me about dancing. im not so sure. ahah. i just know that when i was primary 2, dad open this song and i would dance until the whoe cd song finish playing all those songs. its crazy.
but i miss those days. how i wish that i would spent my weekends with them like those little toddlers time. when i work and see those teenagers with their mum and dadand their family and they seem so happy. they really are making me envy them and making me feel like a worst daughter or something. i just dont know. but hey, im tryna look at the brightside.
ok. someone please turn me into a
SUPERMODELDANCINGSINGERGIRL!
ahaha!
{ @ 9:54 AM}
it was a no choice to wake up scene when i saw the clock show its nakes tick tock at 9.00am. and the exact time, my dad, and my mum and her friends from work which consist like of 4 people included this'bapok' an and a guy, came to my house to some 'karaoke-ing'. i think i should call it karaoke marathon. cause it seems to be nonn-stop singing contest.
i walk out my room with the towel cover my face and hair cause my hair look like an afro turn into a lion at that moment. and i kinda peep and saw the guy standing and sing. i was like, "trying to be a superstar isit?". eee! okok. mum gonna kill me if i tell her. but i think im gonna tell her anyway. ahaha.
so bath and all. and i heard this women voice. not bad not bad. but nice nice nice nice suddenly loose the tone of the song. i kinda giggled in the showers. ahaha.
so went out of the bath room with everything on and go salam they all. including the bapok. she really look like a girl ok. i mean, she do it. she really look a minah that kinda but i think much decent. she ragged lah. aahah. and there was this moment before when i ask my mum like this,
mai"ma, kawan mama yang bapok tu ikut eh?" mum"tak baik panggil dier bapok. dier dah jadi girl" mai"err.."
ahah!
ok. wadever it is, i feel weird salam-ing that so call girl ok.
but i wish to hear HER sing though. hehs
ok. im like needa get ready to work. starting at 12 and im still sleepy. ahhhh! smack me please
{ @ 12:57 AM}
i had fun =)
went out with iza, and 4 bastards (syafiq,husaini,asyik,syauqi). ahaha. we went to marina square. went to topshop and mr syauqi bought himself a pair of jeans. and the 3 guys came and if im not wrong, my syafiq bought himself a jacket. i guess. uh huh. and then we went to Creative. and i like this small small tv lah. its like soo the WOAH! haha. and ouh ouh, our mr syauqi here bought himself a $179 Creative mp3 player. bravo bravo. ahaha. then we went to eat! and i bought myself a grilled chicken with additional rice. niceeeeeee! i love love the sauce.
then we went to ARCADE! we all played the Daytona car racing. ahahaa. over 6 people i got 4th. shit! ahaha. that husaini bang my car. you watch out you. ahahah. or else i got 1st =ppp then play this game. ahaha. best lah that one. i play with syafiq then i lose. then syafiq play with asyik. then syafiq lose. then asyik play with husaini. then syauqi. ahaha. and i play this push push game with melly. ahahaha. i win i win! lalala~ then verses syauqi. i win i win! ahah! ok. shuddup
then cam whore here and there then i, melly and syauqi went home seperately cus i live in the north. ouh yeah. and the 3 guys, syafiq, hus and asyik went to have some shesha.